Satan is out to destroy you

I’m not writing a study this time, I’m going to tell you a personal testimony to encourage and warn all of you. As we all know, satan is out to destroy and to kill every work of the Lord our God. The ones he is aiming for, are the people with an anointing for ministry, pastors, shepherds, prophets, apostles, evangelists and teachers. Let’s make one thing very clear; the enemy is showing not a single trace of mercy. We, as the body of Christ, should not count on that. If he sees an opportunity to destroy your ministry, your marriage or your personal life, he will take it. I’m not telling you this out of theory, but out of my own experience. To tell you this testimony, I first have to tell you a little more about my personal life.

I became a Christian in 1999. After I served satan for two years, I finally found my way to Jesus Christ. You can view my full testimony on the “Who we are” page, which includes the video. In the four years after that I learned a lot about God and about deliverance, but all that time I still was addicted to sex, as I was before I became a Christian. Sure, I did fight it and I longed to be free of it, but it didn’t work out. Every time I fell for the same sin, which was in my case visiting prostitutes. This started in 1997, before I came a Christian, and ended in 2008, nine years after I became a Christian, seven years after I got a relation with my wife and four years after I married her. It was one of the biggest and hardest fights I ever had in my life. Still I tried to help people who were having spiritual problems, while I was still fighting that sin. This sin was like quicksand. The harder I tried to fight it, the more I got stuck in it.

I remember how I posted an ad on the internet for people who needed help. This was in 2003. Just a few hours later, someone responded to that ad. In this testimony I will call him John, which is not his real name. John responded with a email and told me how hopeless he felt. Soon we started to talk on MSN Messenger and later also called each other several times. He told me that he had serious problems with pornography and that he couldn’t stop watching it. I also told him about my struggles and we shared a lot about our personal lives. He was also a Christian and wanted to live pure and holy for God and for his family. He knew about the ministry of deliverance and told me that he was a spiritual leader until he just couldn’t do that anymore. Because of his sin, he decided to step down and even left the church. That was the situation where he was in when we met. Out of our many talks grew a close friendship and he became one of my three best friends. We shared everything together and tried to help each other where and when needed.

John really had a strong calling and anointing for deliverance upon his life. All these years I tried to encourage him to work on that together with the Holy Spirit. He had an amazing knowledge of the Bible, much more then I had. It seemed that he knew the Bible from the beginning to the end. It was a gift that God gave him. Because of that sin of pornography and sex chats with several women on the internet, he never did grew further. He told me that he didn’t want to be a hypocrite, although he longed to be free from all of it. I couldn’t say much about it at that time, since I had a struggle as well. Since John was really talented on the area of graphic design, I started a company with him in 2004. We offered web design, graphical design, house styling etc. The company didn’t last long since we weren't able to find enough customers, and so it ended in 2005. After this, our ways in business separated, but we still remained friends. It was from that moment that I started my carrier as a IT recruiter for several companies.

In February 2007 I got a new opportunity to start my own company. This time in recruiting and staffing. Within no time I got a salary that was four times modal and business was growing. Finally I had success in business. But then, in June of that same year, my father died. That was one of the most shocking experiences I had in my life. As a response to this, I became very angry at God. I couldn’t understand why He allowed that to happen. I also talked this with John and he tried to help me to stay on the right track. Only two months after my father died, I became entangled in an affair with a girl from church. Instead of dealing with my feelings, I fled in an affair. The struggle only became bigger and bigger. When I told John about it, he was shocked and warned me to get out while I still could. He also told me that I needed to tell everything to my wife. The affair lasted one month, then I ended it, but my pastor found out anyway. He also told me that I needed to confess everything to my wife, just like John told me. I really was scared to do that and to admit to my wife that I wasn’t the guy that she thought I was. I shared a lot of this feelings with John, but he still encouraged me to confess it. With a lot of help of my pastor at the church, the encouragements of John and encouragements of some others friends, I finally took the courage to confess all, my many visits to prostitutes (over 200 times) and about the affair. At the moment I did that, God delivered me from my addiction! But He did more then that. He restored my marriage. John knew about all of this, about what happened, about the struggle I had to deal with it all, about my fear to confess everything, about the confession itself, he knew everything.

After all this was passed, my whole life changed in a positive way. Not only my relation with my wife was restored, but also my relation with the Lord. Business was still growing and I really had the best results I ever had in business. Money was coming in like water, an experience I never had before. Then I decided that I wanted to have a extra staff member, in the role of account manager. I shared this with John and asked him if he would like to work for my company. He didn’t had any experience in that role, but I told him I would help him to learn it and so he agreed. In 2008 he became my account manager. Even before he started, he was so very enthusiastic about the opportunity and already started to do a lot of things for my company and he also came with a lot of ideas. He was very motivated and it was a real pleasure to see that. When he started his job, he was doing a great job and started to network with all sorts of businesses which were interesting for us. Beside his role as a account manager, he also became my personal assistant and the deputy manager of the company. When I wasn’t in the office, he was in charge of the staff. Everything was going well, until I came in the office at one morning, one month after he started…

It was May 2008, Wednesday morning, when I came in the office. John wasn’t looking very happy. I started my pc, made myself a cup of tea and then went to his office to find out what was wrong. After I shut the door behind me and asked him what was going on, he started to cry. Then he started to tell me what was going on. He had met a few women on the internet and chatted with them. Most of the chats were sex chats. I knew he had that problem, but this time he looked seriously upset about it. Then he continued and told me that he spent the night with one of this women and that he had sex with her. John was married and had a son. Although he had serious problem with pornography and sex chats, he never cheated on his wife “for real” and never had sex with another woman during his marriage. At that point he did cross a (spiritual) line. I remember how I just stared at him with my eyes and mouth wide open. I just couldn’t believe what he just told me. Then I started to ask him how he could do such a thing, especially after he witnessed all that I had to go through. I remember how I said “Of all people, you know how hard it was for me to break with my sins on this area. I shared everything with you, I even shared my feelings about it and you knew how hard it was. Many times I begged you, please do not cross that line. Why, why did you do this?”. His only reply was “O, don’t be a hypocrite. You, of all people, want to help me? Don’t be hypocrite”. I begged him to stop with it and to confess everything to his wife. He said he didn’t knew what to do, but later that day he promised he would confess everything.

That day was a turning point in the life of John. From that moment on, nothing was the same again. He no longer shared a lot with me anymore, just a little bit when I asked him about it. Later I found out that he didn’t stop with it. He even had sex with two other women as well and wasn’t planning on stopping with it. I even found post cards with love letters at his desk, addressed to him at the company’s address. Not only didn’t he stop with cheating on his wife, his results were collapsing as well. By not repenting from this sin, especially on this area, he opened a huge door for demonic powers to enter his life and to destroy it. Only two months and many discussion about his results later, we decided that it was better to stop working together and he resigned. I really didn’t like to allow him to resign, but I couldn’t find another way. From that moment our friendship was a bit cooled down. He wasn’t the same person that I knew before all of this happened.

At the end of that year, God allowed that my company was taken away from me and I was forced to stop with it. Suddenly orders stopped coming in and the company, my staff, my office and my car was gone within just two months. A few months after that happened, John called me. We shared about what happened and also about the end of my company. Then he told me that he found a great opportunity to build a new company and asked me to come and work for him. He told me just to trust him and to help him build this new company. He said it would be a great opportunity for him to do something back for me for all the help I gave him and to help me out of my debts. At that same moment I heard the Holy Spirit telling me “NO!” and I didn’t had peace about it, so I told him I wouldn’t do that. As a result of that, he became angry at me and hung up the phone. Short time after that, he called me again. This time he told me to get in my car and to drive to Amsterdam, where he was in a hotel. He told me that he was telling prostitutes about the gospel, which sounded very weird to hear out of his mouth. He also told me that the Lord gave him some great insights about how to build a company. He told me not to be to proud to work for him, but just to do it. Again he asked me to get into my car immediately, dressed it suit, and to drive to Amsterdam. Again the Holy Spirit told me not to do it.

That was not the end of it. Later I found out that he took all of the money of the saving account, which was the saving account of him and his wife. He took everything they had and bought clothes for it to sell at markets. That was the way he thought he could make a lot of money with. At that moment many demonic powers had already taken full control. He threatened his wife, abused her, forced her to pray and made her feel very unsafe in his neighborhood. At one point his pastor came over to his house to talk. During this meeting he gave his pastor a head butt. As a result of that, the pastor had to be transported by ambulance to the hospital and John was arrested by the police, who handed him over to the closed ward of a psychiatric hospital. While he was there he called me again and told me that I was the only one he trusted, but he sounded very unclear in everything he said. Bottom-line was that he blamed me for not working with him and that he just wanted to help me. I told him he needed to repent and needed to be delivered. Again he called me a hypocrite an hung up the phone. That was the last time I spoke with him. Short time after that, the hospital released him and he divorced from his wife. From that moment on I didn’t hear much of him for months, until his ex wife called me in November of 2009.

It was a Sunday evening when my phone rang. It was the ex wife of John. She told me that John was involved in fight, earlier that day. Until now it still isn’t very clear what happened exactly. The rumor goes that he rose upon the yard of someone and that he tried to convince them to repent. Somehow a fight was started and during that fight, John died/was murdered. That is how the life of one of my three best friends ended.

I’m not talking much about this, especially because I still miss him and how he used to be, but I feel that the Holy Spirit wants me to share this with you all because it contains a huge warning. Satan is out to destroy every anointed man or woman of God. This is end time. God is raising up His army and preparing a huge revival and a huge harvest for the Kingdom of God. Satan will do anything to prevent that from happening. When you are just someone who is visiting a church, you are no threat to him. But the more you start to grow, the higher the level where you’re on, the more anointing you receive, the more you become a threat for satan and the harder he will try to destroy your life in every single way. He no longer comes to steal, he now only comes to destroy and to kill, just as he did with one of my best friends.

Just as I begged my best friend to repent, I now beg you to make sure that satan doesn’t have any room in your life to do the same what he did to John. The moment you choose consciously to allow a sin into your life, you are leaving God’s protection and entering the area of satan where he has every legal right to destroy your life. I don’t want to make you scared, I want you to become aware of this. Every sin will cost you something, but if you allow a sin consciously, you have a problem with God. If that is the case in your life, you need to repent in order to enter His protection again. Don’t give the enemy the legal right to destroy anything in your life. Sure, we all commit sin, we all make mistakes, but as soon as the Holy Spirit convinces us of it, we need to repent. We are not leaving God’s protection when we commit sins, we are leaving God’s protection when we allow these sins to maintain in our lives. God always wants to protect us from the evil plans of the enemy. That is why the Holy Spirit is convincing you to repent and to obey Him. I’ve just told you the worst case scenario. This will not happen in every case, but the higher the level where you’re on, the higher the risk. Be aware of it, do the right thing and stay under His protection and anointing. Now you’re warned and I hope and pray you will take this serious. God bless you all.